Just going through the motions
Things just seem to happen to me without too much effort on my part. Sure there is a bit of decision making, as choices always need to be made. As this quarter is coming to an end, I am just now beginning to feel the consequences of my decision to enter graduate school for the first time.I always knew I was going to go to grad school- I just never knew what I would study or when I would actually go. I had three reasons for choosing Ohio University: I got a scholarship, I always wanted to have that away-from-home college experience, and I knew there was about a 99.9% chance that I would get to travel over the summer. But my choice had really very little to do with what I would actually be studying.
So far the course work hasn't been too challenging- with the exception of having to take a language. I knew that part of the program would give me trouble. I have absolutely no motivation to learn any of these languages when I know I'm likely to never use it. (Mainly because a two year program is NOT going to allow me to learn enough of a language to actually use it for research or making business deals.) Because I dropped Thai and switched to Indonesian I have to take some sort of intensive language course this summer in order to fulfill my two year language requirement. This just so happens to be in Wisconsin. Or Indonesia. Since I traveled last summer there is no way I afford to do it again this summer. Not to mention, from what I hear about the program in Indonesia, I don't think it would be for me anyway.
Sometimes I feel like this program is a bit of a waste- other than walking away with a Master's, I really have no idea how my knowledge of Southeast Asia will help me in the future. Then again I thought the same thing when I got my B.A. in Anthropology. Anyway, where I really think I'm going with this is that I think for the first time in my life I'm tired of being in school. I'm tired of being broke. I'm ready for a change and I hate that it has to be delayed because of a language program.
posted by imagine @ 12:37 PM
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Depending on if/ where you end up in Wisconsin, give me a shout if you feel like dropping in on Chicago.
Well hey...you could be working a shittastic forty hour a week job and wishing you were in grad school and having a sense of personal achievement and satisfaction that just doesn't come from being a lab monkey. Or that could just be me...no wait, that is me.
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